Have you ever just had one of those days? One of those days when you jump out of bed and are eager to get your day started and then before you know it, you can’t wait for it to end? Today was kind of one of those days.
I had a great time at church and serving with friends, a great lunch, time by the pool with a friend and a blizzard. What more could one ask for?
In all reality, it was not necessarily ‘today’ that was the problem. I think it was simply being asked several questions that reminded me that I’m still grieving the loss of something that I have recently lost (by choice, but lost none the less). As many of you know, I have worked at my church in the Outreach Department for the last two years. I was blessed to partner with church members, local volunteers, missionaries, people in our community and many others. I was blessed to be able to dream big and gained a great vision and passion for the ministry of which I was involved and the ministry that I dreamed (dream) the Lord would continue to grow. I spent my days serving the church and thinking constantly about how we could continue to reach out to a lost and broken world, provide opportunities for people to serve others, and envisioning different ways to see the Truth of Jesus and His love being poured out over this city and in many places around the world.
All this being said, there was not a place for me to continue to use my gifts in our department and I was led by the Lord to step off of staff and begin looking for a new job. As many of you know, the Lord provided that with a position in the Coppell ISD. I’m very thankful and very excited about the possibilities that are ahead of me this year, but today has been one of mixed emotions. As always, I am reminded that in most cases the going is good, but the leaving is hard. Today, the emotion of leaving was in high gear.
Though today has been difficult, I am reminded of the faithfulness of God in providing me a great job! My principal is amazing, the staff seems very supportive and friendly and the position is very different from years past (another opportunity to learn and grow).
This morning at church we sang the song “Surrender” and that was the beginning of what I call “A.D.” (Automatic Drip). The song lyrics are below.
I’m giving You my heart, all that is within
I lay it all down, for the sake of You my KingI’m giving You my dreams, laying down my rights
I’m giving up my pride, for the promise of new life*And I surrender all to You, all to You
And I surrender all to You, all to YouI’m singing You this song, I’m waiting at the cross
All the world holds dear, I count it all as lossFor the sake of knowing You, for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your painAnd I surrender it all to you, all to You
I’m working on truly surrendering all to Jesus and seeking to learn how to truly want what He wants. I’m excited to see what the year to come brings and praying that the emotion of the loss will soon pass.
I hope that you too can experience the peace follows true surrender.
